You know I'm gonna talk about it! (I think that's one reason why colon cancer is one of the leading cancers in America because we are embarrassed to talk about it . It deals with parts of the body we don't like to mention , unlike breast cancer where everyone is willing to talk about it) ...ANYWAY... Here we go, or should I say I DID GO # 2 !!! Before the weekend started I thought surely I would pass some gas like they said I would. I was still on liquids and started eating more regular food except raw veggies . I slept on the couch so I would have easy access to the bathroom. I guess during the night I felt like I had to go but it was Gas! such a relief it was. It's like I'm training my body and mind to help me know which is which, gas or #2? SO I felt like I needed to track my success..on a Chart! I know, I'm 33 not 3! who cares It's how I get through!:-) Though it's funny how proud you can become after using the "potty" and not knowing if your were capable or not. I feel God has blessed me a continuing recovery of my body. I know from talking to the surgeon that It can take several weeks to get that sensation back and maybe a few "Depends" days ahead........... boy will he be shocked!! I can say though, that my body is finding a "new normal" . Well enough about talking about my "BM"s and just know that Im doing well!
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
Sunday, June 15, 2008
1 armband to add to my collection...
Well I made it through another surgery and get to add to my collection of hospital armbands! After surgery is not too bad. I'm still sore around where they closed my ileostomy"hole". And the other day I finally passed gas. I wasn't able to in the hospital,but geez I was only there till wed. afternoon! Not even 2 full days! I'm tough girl you know:-) Well I fell like I'm a adult going through my own potty training! Sunday morning I finally had a "BM" !! I felt like getting out the gold stars and putting them on a chart or something! I was expecting loose,and watery bm...ah not quite, a small normal bm! God is good. I know it sounds silly to praise God for something so normal, but usually after having a rectal surgery that isn't normal. I'm just happy I can sense it coming and hold it enough till I get to the restroom! I still have to continue with my chemo a week from now and my body will change once again and hopefully I can control it during that time! keep praying for my body to recover in all ways. I can see the light at the end of the tunnel!
Tuesday, June 03, 2008
From swimming laps to Survivor Lap...

(my hand is covering my face! LOL!)
I guess the memories are still fresh in my head and close to my heart from Relay for Life. As a child growing up I found a love for swimming. I was quite the competitor...even in swim team practice, trying to finish my LAPS before everyone else. I also was involved in the the swim team's RELAY every so often,which involved those who were fast, strong and make it to the end of the race the best way they knew how. From those days of swimming LAPS and being in RELAYS , I would have never thought 15 years or so down the road I would NOT be swimming but WALKING a LAP of survivorship in RELAY FOR LIFE... The Cancer Survivor Lap. Some people get emotional during this lap, because as you are walking, people along the side are clapping for you and cheering you on( just like a swim race). I will be honest, I felt proud, strong, and happy to be alive. Everything you go through when your are told your have cancer is like a whirlwind at first, like you can't believe it's happening and then there you are getting"zapped" with radiation, carrying a chemo pack everywhere you go, and numerous surgeries that you feel like the hospital is the norm. So as a swimmer I know when you're swimming a long distance race you have to pace yourself ,but still stay strong and give it all you got to the end to WIN!
Monday, June 02, 2008
Relay For Life Picture video at top of blog...
I had to post someting just incase you wanted to leave comments...
Friday, May 30, 2008
RELAY FOR LIFE IS TODAY....
Sunday, May 25, 2008
New Energy!

WOW! Your prayers worked this week! At the beginning of the week I thought to myself,"this is going to be a tough week". After wed. when they take off my pump,Im still tired...that day I slept A LOT! the next day or two USUALLY Im groggy and tired....well on thurs, I was out doing yard work! I was so glad it was a good week and Im able to enjoy the beautiful weather this Memorial Day weekend with my family. On June 10th I'll be having my ileostomy reversed! eeeks! I'm excited yet apprehensive...As much as I hate having to depart from my ostomy bag I think I will miss it. I ask for your prayers once again for God to continue healing my colon and rectum for me to "use the bathroom" without worry and be discouraged...I know it will take time for my body to adjust, but along with the lists of physicans I have, Jesus is the most powerful one I have! He can do great things! and I praise him for doing them in my life and the journey he has sent me on.
Monday, May 19, 2008
WIPE OUT WEEK...

Im posting before I even started my 5th chemo cycle. For some reason I'm starting to get aggitated with this chemo. I just hate the feeling of being wiped out. My eyelids feel like they are weighted down with bricks on some days. Wish I had a time machine or a "life remote control" to fastforward through this.(just the chemo part) . Im sure I'll get through it like have the past cycles...pray for my energy level to be up this week:-)
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
1/3 of the way!
Cycle #4 done!
I guess it's a positive way of looking at it. 1/3 is close to 1/2 way right? And about that time is when I'm planning on having my ileostomy reversed.YIKES! so I'll get a week off of my chemo schedule. This past weekend we had our neighborhood 24 blocks of yard sales! It was car crazy where I live. I got rid of some clothes and books that the boys had out grown and clothes that I didn't fit into anymore(Since oct-07 Ive lost about 25 lbs and gained 7lbs back.) also we had a Relay 4 Life "bake sale" to raise some money.This year I'm doing Relay 4 Life. It's where you raise money for the American Cancer Society and they have a "walk" where the community meets for an overnight celebration of survivors and remembrance of those lost their battle with cancer. The overnight part of it represents cancer and that it never takes a break ... so a least one team member is suppose to keep walking and you alternate. It should be fun, tiring, emotional and something I know I won't forget. By the way today is LIVESTRONG DAY ! 
I guess it's a positive way of looking at it. 1/3 is close to 1/2 way right? And about that time is when I'm planning on having my ileostomy reversed.YIKES! so I'll get a week off of my chemo schedule. This past weekend we had our neighborhood 24 blocks of yard sales! It was car crazy where I live. I got rid of some clothes and books that the boys had out grown and clothes that I didn't fit into anymore(Since oct-07 Ive lost about 25 lbs and gained 7lbs back.) also we had a Relay 4 Life "bake sale" to raise some money.This year I'm doing Relay 4 Life. It's where you raise money for the American Cancer Society and they have a "walk" where the community meets for an overnight celebration of survivors and remembrance of those lost their battle with cancer. The overnight part of it represents cancer and that it never takes a break ... so a least one team member is suppose to keep walking and you alternate. It should be fun, tiring, emotional and something I know I won't forget. By the way today is LIVESTRONG DAY ! 
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
9 cycles to go! (sigh)...

Well ladies and gents, I have 9 cycles of Chemo to go! I haven't even hit the 1/2 way mark yet! As you can see I have my Chemo pack strapped to me. I'll be featuring somewhere on my side bar how to wear and live with chemo pack...Some of it may be funny so don't be offended...it's how I get through it ...it's only when you have it you tend to joke about it. So anyway, I got my blood counts back yesterday and the Dr. said they were great! and my CEA ("cancer detector"/tumor marker) was 0.5 normal range, so that was great news to hear!...back in Nov'07 is was 68.0 ,elevated because I had cancer in my body! My fingertips are starting to turn brown again, I'll spared you the grossness of a picture...not so pretty! I get my chemo pump taken off tomorrow Yeah! This time they will give me nausea meds ...the last time it made me feel sick ,so hopefully that will do the trick! Feelin good guys! I always look forward to next week when I can guzzle cold liquids! (my chemo makes me REAL sensitive to cold! bizarre huh!)
Wednesday, April 09, 2008
Do you drink SODA ?...maybe you should stop....

The Scoop on Soda
Children sip it, college students crave it, and adults gulp it to get through the workday. But according to a growing body of research, America’s favorite fizzy drink isn’t just a harmless vice—it’s a genuine health hazard that can cause obesity, bone loss, and tooth decay. Some studies even suggest that soda can increase your risk for diseases such as diabetes and cancer. Read on to get the real story behind these sparkling soft drinks.
Here, the top 10 reasons why you should put pop to a stop.
1. It makes you gain weight. According to a 2005 study conducted by the University of Texas Health Science Center, drinking one to two cans of soda a day increases a person’s risk of being overweight or obese by 32.8 percent. And if you think diet soda is a better option, think again: The researchers found that those who drank one to two cans of diet soda per day were at an even higher risk (54.5 percent) of being overweight or obese.
2. It increases your disease risk. A 2007 study published in the American Heart Association’s journal Circulation found that people who drink soda every day, whether regular or diet, were 44 percent more likely to develop metabolic syndrome—a condition that greatly increases your risk for heart disease and diabetes.
3. It has no nutritional value. A 20-ounce bottle of cola contains nearly 250 calories, but take a look at the label, and you’ll see that it has virtually no vitamins or minerals. In fact, the only things soda is packed with are sugar and caffeine—two ingredients for which FDA has no recommended daily allowance.
4. It doesn’t satisfy your thirst. When it comes to quenching your thirst, water is the gold standard, but herbal tea and fruit juice are also good options. Soda, on the other hand, is likely to make you thirstier because caffeine is a diuretic and sugar interferes with the body’s absorption of fluids.
5. It’s bad for digestion. Soda’s effects on digestion are a source of ongoing debate, but some experts believe the phosphoric acid these beverages contain may disturb the acid-alkaline balance of the stomach. As a result, they believe, soda drinkers may develop digestional distress, acid reflux, stomach inflammation, and intestinal erosion.
6. It can be addictive. A 2000 study published in the Archives of Family Medicine revealed that soft-drink manufacturers add caffeine to soda for one reason only: to get consumers hooked. Although this type of addiction may seem benign, experts are quick to point out that caffeine is a stimulant, and once you’re addicted, going cold turkey can create withdrawal symptoms, including fatigue, depression, irritability, tremors, sleep deprivation, and headaches.
7. It’s not eco-friendly. Believe it or not, many people still don’t recycle their bottles and cans. In fact, it’s estimated that some 50 billion aluminum cans and plastic bottles from soft drinks get thrown into landfills every year. Even if you recycle, the containers are still energy-intensive to mine, produce, and recycle.
8. It’s bad for your bones and teeth. According to a recent Tufts University study, women who drank three 12-ounce colas a day had 5 percent less bone density than women who drink less than a serving a day. As the researchers explained, the phosphoric acid in cola prevents calcium from being absorbed by the body. Not surprisingly, soda is also damaging for teeth: A 2006 study, published in General Dentistry, reported that the citric and/or phosphoric acid in soft drinks can be harmful and corrosive to a healthy smile.
9. It may cause cancer. Although still controversial, some scientists believe that soda can increase your cancer risk. A 2006 study from Sweden’s Karolinska Institutet supports the theory: Study subjects who drank high quantities of fizzy or syrup-based soft drinks twice a day or more ran a 90 percent higher risk of developing pancreatic cancer than those who never drank them.
10. It costs a lot of money. Compared to fruit juice or milk, soft drinks may seem inexpensive, but when you consider the lack of nutritional value, soda seems like a rip-off. And keep in mind that the costs of soda can quickly add up. The average 12-ounce can of soda costs about $1 from the vending machine, so if you drank two a day for a year, you’d spend a whopping $730 on pop every year.
**** Just to let you guys know, found this article somewhere,but can't remember where. I found it quite interesting. Back before my diagnosis of colon cancer, I stopped drinking soda and replaced it with water. Now being a woman in a situation w/out my female organs I run the risk of osteoporosis. So drinking soda prevents calcium absorption...and with that said WATER is truely your best choice:-)
Tuesday, April 08, 2008
Wearing Gloves inside???
Thursday, April 03, 2008
Raining today and eyes full of tears
So, today here it is 40 degrees ,rainy, gloomy, and I'm emotional. I have these days occasionally,especially when it's raining and there's no sun in sight! I'm a member of the Colon Club Forum where we talk about stuff regarding colon cancer and EVERYTHING associated with it. I really have to stop reading some of the posts and stories because some are just depressing, scary and even horrific! What I've gone though seem like a cakewalk compared to what some of these people have gone through! But today after reading about radiation prior to an illeotomy and then getting it reversed and things that can go wrong because of the affects of radiation in the rectum....uuuggg...I just lost it after I got out the shower today. I'm just "tapped out" sometimes...tired of trying to be"so strong" , sometimes I just don't want to smile, tired of this all sometimes. I'm so thankful for a husband like Chad. It's usually when one of us is weak the other is there to be strong. He reminded me when you just can't handle it anymore and what you're going through is much greater than you can handle to just TRUST God to Carry you when just can't walk through it anymore... So true Chad,so true.
Over the months I've receive lots of mail and well wishes and it's always so nice to hear from ones you haven't heard from in awhile. Well, A few weeks ago, Chad's Uncle felt that God put it on his heart to be praying for me( the week I started chemo, and he didn't know that either) and Chad's mom relayed the message to Chad and me. It was nice to know that someone else out there was praying for me...
So, today I received in the mail a Card from his Uncle Bob! Not just coincidence in my book...God's perfect timing and I felt it was God reassuring me that He's here, holding me and giving me peace,and joy and renewed strength. Thank you God.:-)
Monday, March 24, 2008
Chemotherapy: Round Two :Day One

10:30 AM-3:30 pm ...What a day! My first day of treatment of this cycle. I got my nausea meds, then my "liquid gold" ,received my push of 5-FU and got some "to go " in a take home pump. Not so bad today, but I can feel the tiredness coming on . So I'm still going to continue my "green machine" (chlorelle/spirlina drink) which can help with anemia ( I'm not anemic and don't want to) also can help with side effects of chemo. Remember my Rebounder post a while back...going to try to start that too. This can build you while blood cells and that's mega important during this time when these cell counts drop. I serve a God who doesn't hold onto statistics...I pray that I beat theses side effect stats and that all goes well and leave the Dr's picking their jaws off the floor:-) Today I had a nurse who was training along a head nurse today. She was talking to me and said, I just can't believe you are going through chemo, you could be my daughter, I'm old enough to be your mother...and your are attitude is so positive. I told her you have to just stay positive to get through it, if you don't it brings you down and your hope tends to fade. Again I was the youngest chemo patient in the room today. An elder man sat near us today and while I was in the bathroom asked chad "does she have cancer" (umm I would be sittin the chair if I didn't:-) anyway he told him that I had colon cancer. " shes too young to have cancer" the man said. Chad said yeah more and more young people are getting cancer these days it seems.

Me watching a movie .Chad doing his work and keeping me company...Love this guy!
Chemo " to go" pump.
Sunday, March 23, 2008
LIVESTRONG...as a Christian.
Saturday, March 22, 2008
Rollie-Pollie
Well, I have felt like a rollie-pollie for the past 26 days! Sleeping at night is challenging in way...it's either lay on your back or lay on your back! UMMM I'm a tummy sleeper!!! So just recently I've been able to lay on my left side!!! Progress for someone who just had abdominal surgery. With the help of my body pillow it's comfortable. My right side is not so much. that's the side where my ileostomy is. This is where I feel like a rollie-pollie, side to back to side again... Well this early this morning I tried it...I slept on my TUMMY! AHHH...SO NICE... for awhile that is. So a small victory in my life and I'm praying for more to come and praising God for the good and bad. I start my chemo on Mon. march,24 @ 10:30 am. Let's hope it goes well...it may be a good thing that I have my ileostomy...one of the side effects of FOLFOX is diarrhea...I guess I'll be emptying my bag often if that the case(sorry if that's too much information but that's my reality)I'll keep ya posted.
Monday, March 10, 2008
My very own "Colondar"...

So I entered and told them about me and that I just had surgery and will undergo chemotherapy at the end of the month. Also that I had applied for the Colondar but already had 2009 models. But I'm on the "list" for applicants for the 2010 Colondar. We'll see what happens, first things first.
So today I get an Email from BELLA magazine informing that I had won the prize, the 2008 Colondar! I never win anything ! Seeing their scars is pretty powerful I think... to me a scar usually means you've been through something tough and a story to go along with it.
Read about them a www.colonclub.com ...amazing stories indeed!
Friday, March 07, 2008
I'm Becoming a "REGULAR" at the OR and still have 2 procedures to go!
11-09-07 Blood band(I had to GET blood :Very anemic!
11-13-07 Found Cancer
11-20-07 Implanted PORT( for chemo)
1-31-08 Colonoscopy
2-26-08 Colon resection- Removed CANCER
2-26-08 Blood Band for Transfusion if needed.
TBA Ileostomy reversal
TBA PORT removal !
I know I'm wierd...I save stuff like this ...it's better than seeing a picture of my scar I will have ;-)
Tuesday, March 04, 2008
From a MASS to a PEANUT...
You're wondering What? Well when cancer was found in my lower colon it was the size of an average fist and staged at T4 and didn't look good. Just look at that scan...it's a monster! I would say my response to chemo/radiation were very good along with my alternative methods. At the time of my colonoscopy it was the size of a golfball. At that point in my treatment, it had reached the maxium potential for it's use. Sooo between then and the time I had my recent surgery is when I guzzled my green machine drink twice a day and a protien shake w/Zeolite and my usual intake of vitamins. Well it may...I believe it did help shrink it more! When they took the cancer out it was the size of PEANUT!!! AND my lymphnodes were CLEAR of cancer! (Just found out yesterday on the pathology report) . I serve an amazing GOD who still keep working on my body after what researchers tell us that the chemo and rad. work to it maxium for 6 weeks and then proceed to surgery.
I give PRAISE and THANKS to Him because I KNOW it was Him. Even though it didn't change the course of surgery , he still has his plan for me . Thanks to ALL who have been praying for me and thinking of me...I truely feel it.Monday, February 25, 2008
Angels Among Us....

So today I went to my workplace, Old Navy to visit. It was nice to see everyone and know I have true friends there to help me out when I need it. I went back to the fitting room to say hi to Suzanne. She was helping this lady at the time and then S. saw me and asked me if I was nervous? I said I was okay today but tomorrow I may be different. The woman asked me what I was having done? I told her a colon resection. Who's you doctor? I told her. OH he's so wonderful and a great surgeon. Oh you be okay and you do just fine.
She was very reassuring and told me she was a nurse and the Dr. could line up healthcare to your home for the ilostomy if needed.
I said my good byes to S. and went on my way. Time:1:45pm
I had a coupon for bath and body works so I went upstairs to shop. Didn't really buy anything and headed back out towards O.N. and ran into that Lady AGAIN. She stopped me and said You're going to do fine you'll be okay. And smiled at me.
I got home and went into Chad's office to see what he was up to. He said he was listening to a song and praying for me and "wanted a sign " that I was going to be okay. I asked him what time he was praying and he said oh probably 15 or 20 mins ago...............Right about the time I was talking to that lady or was she an Angel? I'll never know but I truely felt reassured and at ease after that. God works in mysterous ways.
Friday, February 22, 2008
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